We all got in the same flight, what we only differ is the destination that we choose to go.

There are three kinds of problems; yourself, your surroundings, and the natural occurrences. The ‘yourself’ kind of problem are your emotions—our own behaviors. These are the kind of problems that we have a direct control – which we have the right and the freedom to choose the response that we could give in an aspect where we mostly did not expect. Those are our practices that shaped us to be what we are today, but could also be the reason of our ruin one day. A problem which could possibly be solve by first working in the inside—the ‘self’ aspect.

The ‘surroundings’ kind of problem are the people around you. These are the problems that doesn’t give us the right to control—circumstances that gives us the sword—not to fight but to reap everything we did not even sow. The people’s influence around us is very broad that often throw us into the pit of anonymity wherein we could not even pick a single cell in our body to identify our own identity towards the other.

The ‘natural occurrences’ on the other hand, are the kind of problem that definitely occurs naturally. We do not hold anything of it, but it hold everything of us. We do not have a single control over it, but when it occurs, it took over us—whether we like or not, it would. It has the ability to turn our smiles upside down, and the ability to hypnotize us to accept what it would bring to offer and say ‘YES’ to everything it says even though we don’t like them.

We all fell into this aspects every day, in every decisions we make, we are fighting over it. Yet, the one thing that we have the complete control over these aspects is our ability to response over them. We have every freedom to choose what we would give them in return.

If you feel miserable after failing an exam—the choice was yours—you chose for it and you are responsible of yourself for feeling it. On the other hand, if you chose to accept the result and learning from it instead, you’re giving yourself the chance to work for the better and giving way for some improvement.

When the world presents you with something frustrating, choose to do something about it. Don’t just stand there and shake your head while it is eating your whole being. Change your perspective, overrule your response. Choose to be a creator.

Copyright © 2021 by Angelica Parantar


What kind of footprint do you want to leave behind?

Time comes when we left our vessel here on Earth. We descend, and went to the place where no one knew the path how to get back. To the place where most people are afraid to even speak or think about. Are you prepared for that time? If so, what kind of footprint are you preparing to be left behind?

The most wonderful feeling a person could ever feel, is when you know that someone is looking up on you. Who were watching your every action, praised even your smallest achievements or even capture your worst mistakes. You never know, in your current life, someone is looking up on you. Of course, there will always be someone who always look high on you, no matter how low you perceive yourself or how unworthy you think you are. Whether it is your child, friend, student, siblings or even your own partner! You’ll never know that the trails you are currently making will someday be the same path your descendants will be walking too.

“No one is you and that is your biggest power.”

– David Grohl

No one is you because you are you! Even the identical twins could be distinguished from each other because they have their own strength, and they have their own abilities. They’d only alike from their physical appearance. The same thing goes with you. You are different, you are unique, you are special and no one, if they try, will never be YOU. But that doesn’t mean that if no one can copy you, then someone cannot use you. Of course anyone can.

You will become someone else’s inspiration, a ladder, and a motivation for them to also reach their own finish line. Like a baby who would always look up, listen, and follow her mother’s every words as she’s trying to achieve her first step. As she’s trying to strengthen her legs’ foundation for her first walk, formulate words for her first talk until she gained confidence on doing it on her own and until she can ran without falling, until she can read fluently, until she can speak without stuttering, until she can count and write faster and until the day that she will have to leave her mother’s arm. But what’s most surprising here is when she went back, hugged her mother tightly and said, “thank you.”

That’s when you realized that you did something better among your worst, something you have amongst your biggest achievements.

That’s why it is important to be always mindful of your actions and decisions that you’ll be making throughout your life. Whatever values you are trying to implant in yourself will radiate within you and eventually influence the people around you.

“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them happy.”

Maya Angelou

Now, let me leave this questions for you:
How would you want to be perceived with?
What kind of trails do you want to leave behind?

Copyright ©2021 by Angelica Parantar


Hello everyone!

So I am back again for another entry! How was your day? Good? Better? Worst? Sucks? That’s okay. You’re still doing well, and tomorrow’s coming, so you still have the chance to make it the ‘best’. 🙂

Before I begin, I wanted to say thank you for visiting my site, you just added in my list as one of my inspirations to continue my passion in writing. And I hope you’ll be getting something new today.

Enjoy reading!

What is this about?

This one is about time and your goals. How much time are you wasting and why are you not moving now?

I always wanted to learn how to ride a bike. Every time I saw people riding bicycles or even motorcycles which are mostly younger than me, I cannot help but be amazed of how calm they were on gripping the handle bar. How comfortable they are on sitting on that tiny seat while moving fast against the wind. They had it effortlessly and every time I was like, “Whoa, how did they do it? Aren’t they afraid from falling? How many times did they fell before becoming a pro?”

I have so many questions, but neither of it was giving me the courage to stand up and snatch up one bicycle from another rider and took the blow myself. Just by thinking about the scratches and stitches they’re getting, literally tightened my stomach. And so I stepped back with my hands on top of my head—yes, I surrendered without even starting. I was weak. A coward. I always let my doubts control my decisions and let it messed my mind.

But it was later this days when I fully gained my courage to finally hold the bicycle and hurled myself into it. As expected, my first try was a mess. I could barely get my balance nor move the pedal to a meter, and the result? Of course a lot of falling, lots of scratches and most of all, body pains. And so I came into the conclusion of giving up. Real quick.

But it was when I was about to bring back the bicycle to its place, when a sudden thought came to me and scolded me more than my mother did. And I was like, “That’s right. Why did I even tried this out when I am just going to give up too quickly? Angie, you wanted this, and while you are choosing this, you’re also committing yourself to be responsible of your decisions. Get back and try again. Do not lose against yourself!” Realizing the mistake that I was about to make not only hurting my body, my ego was sulking as well. So, I tried again. Again. And again.

As I am writing this, I am already visualizing myself doing backflips in the middle of the air while chasing another riders and claiming my gold trophy while giving poses in front of the camera. Did I pass my self-training? Maybe, maybe not. But I can say that I am doing very well. Thanks to my younger brother’s helping hand, I was able to make any progress. And that’s enough. For now.

If you have something in mind that you badly wanted to do, do it now! Do not wait for someone to come and flick your forehead before you’ve got to move your bottom from your comfort zone. Clock’s ticking and you’re not getting any younger. Move. Quick!

Copyright © 2021 by Angelica Parantar


Life is a gift; they said. So as long as we are given this chance to live and able to see the beauty of the world, might as well use it diligently. Acclaim its beauty and savor the moment. Ask questions. Seek answers.

I suppose, if not all, these questions once crossed your mind, and since then it didn’t left your peace of mind. What did you do?

  • Who will be the people I would meet that would be part of my life?
  • What changes they would bring into my life?
  • Would I be able to accept them?
  • Would I be able to surpass the problems that I might encounter along the way?
  • What would my life will turn out in the future?
  • Where does faith and destiny lead me to?

Do you want to know the answers to the above questions? If YES, then start looking for it. Look from within—within yourself. Deep in your heart, you probably know some of them. You just have to take a moment and talk to your heart. There, you’ll find the answers that you’ve been longing to know, or perhaps they are already in front of you. They might already be staring right at your face but you are too blind to recognize them or perhaps you are too overwhelmed by your thoughts that you did not see them or maybe you already did but it was too broad for you to understand that it became transparent the moment you became aware of them. Series of new thoughts appeared the moment you exposed to them and then lead to another and another until the response you suppose to know became vague and then you stopped. You started searching from another query but it turns out that the same cycle happened again. You stopped. Again.

On the other hand, if it is NO, then I will give the decision to you. Your choice will be made. Answering a NO does not mean you can’t do it or not capable of doing it. It only means that you are not yet ready as of the moment your cogitation occurred to you. You still need some time to clear and understand it. “You CAN but you WON’T” is basically the simplest definition of saying “NO”; others might also say “NEXT OPPORTUNITY”, which means that it was only you who knows when will you do the move.

Take your time, but I also say to STOP WASTING TIME. Every seconds count and harnessing it might cause a difference in your life.
For once in your life, have you ever asked yourself questions that could determine the meaning and reason of your existence?

Questions that could seemingly be of use to determine the hidden colours of life; of what really life serve to you or seemed to you or us—humans, animals and all living creatures. Questions with intriguing starting that will lead you to whatever you are longing to know.

Hence, I might say that for some moment of your life under your deep thoughts and meditations, you sometimes barged into this kind of questions and asked yourself such stuff. Yet, eventually discarded them because you thought that it’s pretty absurd and stupid of you to interrogate the creator above. But let me tell you, nothing is wrong with that. You’re just curious. It’s natural of you to get curious and ask random stuffs from random things from whatever your thoughts pays attention to. It is indeed okay, go with it.

Remember to make your self-quest a journey!

Claim your worries!

Every time when I have the opportunity, I’ve always think about this certain situation that I was in. Of my faith and my present kind of life, my way of living and what possibly be my reason and purpose why I am here.

There are times that I could sense that I am only a thought away from the answers I was looking for and could feel that it was already here, beside me and within me. But the next moment, it was gone. It was like I was following a faint trace of dust from the dark and then the wind blew it away and it burned out, leaving me hopeless in the darkness. It was really depressing to search for an answer that was unknown. And searching for an answer to the question that was far from vicinity.

Sometimes, I happened to forget what I was looking for. Then the answer will pop out—or so it seems.

Indeed, a great play. Isn’t it?

Me, forgetting my search and founding the answer, and me, remembering my search and losing my answer. They are like two parallel lines that will never meet. Two constructive horizons that are not bound to be together. A product of that playful faith.

I don’t know what makes me hungry of this search. I should be thankful, for God gave me two bloodlines. A very great blessing and gift to be consider. But I am also anxious about the situation that I am in. Being the center of this two bloodlines, I have the moral obligation to take care each of them. Be responsible and be strong for the shortcomings of waves of problems that may rampage to us. It wasn’t easy. I have to be mentally strong for them, thus I serve as the pillar for them so they could stand still side by side.

I may be overreacting but I can’t set aside this thought that if anyone of them will fall, I could hardly see myself on which side I should go. I was born and grew up with the other side and yet as I was growing up I happened to meet the other side which helps me to sustain my education and thus, they’ve been part of my life. If happens that one of them will fall, I certainly do not know what I should do. But I’m gonna say that none of them will I able to turn my back on.

Nothing’s certain, I must say. But as long as I am still alive, while we are all still here, I must take my part with them in any means than one. I might not know how to do it by now—or maybe oblivious to my knowledge that I already have done it, I just have to strengthen it, placing a lot of straws so it wouldn’t break however strong the waves are.

Life is full of trial and error indeed. There’s no start and ending of everything. If something will gonna finish, another thread will lose and bound to start something new again, like everyone was walking in a single scarlet thread—fragile and soft. Well, no one’s gonna predict what life will make us in the future, so what we gonna do is accept everything with open eyes and open arms. Urassaya Sperbund said, “If it is bad, then it is bad! Try again!” Nothing’s certain but that doesn’t mean you can close yourself from random doors to open.

How about you? What are your worries?

Yet, always remember to make your self-quest a journey (•‿•)


HELLO! Welcome to my Blog everyone!

I am making this site because I wanted to share my own nuances and experience in life. I also wanted to share my thoughts and hoping that among my realizations and conclusions, I could help you, my readers, to also achieve the answers that are long been buried and circulating around your mind and heart.

By reading my blog, and sharing my thoughts, I hope everyone can gain a peaceful state of inner healing.

Have a good day and always remember to “Make your self-quest a journey!”

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